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Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Tuesday Tidbits~ brain rolling down the hill...

Where is my brain??? I just introduced our house guest to my coworker... for the second time. You'd think I would have remembered that I introduced them to each other at my house last week when my coworker came to pick up her little girl.

I am beyond unmotivated right now. I had a dream in the wee hours of last night. I dreamed that I did not want to finish my group proposal. Therefore, I decided I would just drop the class. You know, the one I already attended and completed everything for except the proposal. Good choice, C.C., good choice! Again, where is my brain?

I am not really feeling the whole adoption thing right now, either. I've gone through these feelings before, and I am sure I will go through them again in the future. It's not that I'm upset about anything, but I'm also not really interested in any of it either. I guess you could say I am rather ambivalent. I sorta wonder if I've gotten the whole -God gave me this desire to be a mother- thing wrong. After all, D.T. and I do have a good life and marriage with each other. It's not so bad being just the two of us. I read two things from two different Christian ladies yesterday. One of them proposed the following:

To me, adapting now feels a bit like a negative concept...
like God and I have different ideas about my life,
and by adapting I'm begrudgingly adjusting my view
rather than surrendering to His.
I've learned through the trial and error of life
that I don't want to adapt anymore.

Then, the other lady said:

I think it pleases God when we pursue
the dreams He's tucked in our heart

and encouraged her readers with this:

Sweet sister, bring your dream, whatever it is,
back out into the light of day and press on.

I'm not quite sure what to do with both of these thoughts. I like them, and I think they each have nuggets of truth, but they are also very different from each other. On the other hand, though, I need to find congruence between both statements and my own experience.

I am very much enjoying the weather changes this week, and I really enjoyed the 10 day forecast this morning. Can you say "No coat?!?" The first day of Spring may still be a few days away, but it's already arriving here! :-) I am SO excited!!! :-) :-) :-)

How about you? What's the weather like in your neck of the woods? Can you see the tulips and daffodils yet??? I miss the ones my Gram used to have growing next to her house, and I'm not so good at growing things. LOL! Perhaps, I'll have to call a gardener. :-)

Living in His JOY, HOPE, and PEACE...


Mommies-Miracles said...

The weather is starting to make a turn around here too and it is so wonderfully beautiful. I love seeing that sun shine. Remember we all go through tough times and second guess ourselves, however we find a way to make it through. I'll be praying for you!

-stephanie- said...

God will guide you through this too.

Our weather is beautiful this week. Near 60. This weekend however...rain and snow. :o(

Tara said...

Today, it is gloomy around here but by Thursday it is going to be high 60s and low 70s starting Friday.

I always second guess myself and my feelings. I've been going through it a lot lately in respect to our future plans. I think we just all need to get quiet and hear God speak. I am very guilty of not doing that.

Anonymous said...

Spring has arrived here. The forsythias and daffodils are blooming. The trees have swollen buds. Yay!

I know a little of how you feel. I struggled a little last year with the whole "Did we make a mistake by not having kids?" thing. The more we talked about it the more we realized it really isn't for us. We are so set in our ways now. We really enjoy other people's kids and our nieces and nephew. We are able to do more for them because we don't have our own children to tie us down.

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