That is as far as I've gotten.
I thought we were all done with these letters, but I guess I am wrong. I say these because when we did one for our current agency, we actually each had to write one. Now that we are preparing a profile for an additional agency, we are only writing one from the two of us. A very different process. Plus, there are things we were told not to say in the last letters that we are actually told we should say in this letter. Different agencies. Different birth parents. To each their own, I guess. It is just an awkward thing to write either way.
We finished writing the other things we needed to last night, and have shipped them off to my two favorite proof readers. My mom and my sister. :-) Actually, my mom is the grammar queen, so I know everything will be just perfect! We have selected a BUNCH of pictures. Actually, more than we need to send, so the hard part now is narrowing it down.
I have actually changed SO much (and I cannot overemphasize the SO in this too much!) in what I want from a relationship with a birth mother that it just totally blows my mind. I started out completely fearing birth mothers and actually resenting the fact that a birth mother would be in our lives. At least, in one way or another. Now, however, I have truly come to the place where I desire a relationship with a birth mother and pray that she will want to have some level of ongoing relationship with us and her child. Now, I am not saying that means that a birth mother will be at our house every night or on vacation with us every year, but that we will see her and talk with her and share her child's life and development with her. I can't imagine what an incredible person it takes to be willing to entrust your child to people you only know on paper or may have met once because you believe it is better for that child. I know I could love a person like that. I actually think I already do, even though I don't know who she is. One thing I know for sure is that God loves her, too. After all, He created her, and He died for her. Then, how could I be anything less than grateful to God for the opportunity to be an instrument of His love to her? It is all strange to me, but like I have said before, it has been a journey. That is for sure. Do I sound like a different person? LOL!
So, the next few days for us will continue to be busy. Two days until my intensive. Two exams, if I can pull it off. 29 more extra workbook questions, again, if I can pull it off. Cleaning for our guest to come. Profile stuff. Dear birth mother letter. Phew. I'm tired just thinking of it, and I just got up! :-)