I have not blogged for quite a few days, perhaps because I have not had anything to say. I know. You are *SHOCKED*! Me = speechless? Amazing!
I have, however, thought of a few random things I want to share.
1. It is well with my soul. Finally. It has been quite a few years since I have felt this way. Come to think of it, this *may* be one of the first times I have ever felt well with my soul. It feels good.
2. Sometimes, *silence* is good for the soul, too. Perhaps that is why I have not had much to say for the last few days. That may also be the reason that I might not have much to say for some time in the future. At least much of any significance. It feels like it is time for me to just sit back and wait, and therefore, it feels like it is time for you to sit back and wait right along with me. I've thought that, perhaps, I might not talk about the adoption at all until there is something to tell. I think I have certainly shared my feelings about the whole process ad nauseam. Or, perhaps, I will. Perhaps it will just be bits and pieces. I don't know, and that is my prerogative. I'm a woman, right? I do promise that it has always been honest, and it always will be.
3. We had yet another meeting, *get-together, dinner, whatever you want to call it* on Saturday evening about the adoption. We met with our mentor family who adopted 2 little girls quite a few years ago. It was definitely a very nice meeting. Refreshing. Encouraging. Why wouldn't it be, when we met at 0live G@rden? :-) We ate lots of yummy food, including dessert, and engaged in lots of good conversation. I think I used up all my words for the entire week. ;-) We were able to talk about our plans, and I was able to share how God has been speaking to me. I really appreciated the comment the husband (also a pastor) made that he could tell I have been with God. That was a great compliment, and I really appreciated it. It was, however, very tiring. It always is when we talk in great depth about the adoption, and I think I know why. The pastor/friend/adoption mentor also shared that this process is very much a journey where God molds us into what He needs for us to be. Then, he said that at the end of the process, God says, There. Now, I can use you. That made sense to me, and it explained why *talking, thinking, working through, experiencing* the process is so tiring for me. It's not easy being molded by God. It actually hurts quite a bit, but it is worth it.
4. Is there anything you want to know? About us? About this process? About something I have said that confused you? About anything? I would love to answer your questions, so please feel free to ask. Privately or in the comments of this post. Either way, I'll answer. :-)
Until I feel like talking again...