For what it is worth. 'Cause I know y'all are dying to get inside my head! ;o)
I guess it's a good opportunity to give you an update anyway since I have heard some rumblings that people are curious if anything is happening.
I just saw a tweet come through from someone who praised God for being good because of the way He has blessed her family with three children in the last four years. Part of me wants to say "Amen!" and part of me feels like someone socked me in the gut. Don't misunderstand me. I am doing VERY well emotionally and spiritually! It just doesn't go away. It can't. It is part of me, and it always will be regardless of any possible or eventual outcome. It is what God has used to get my attention.
Back to the tweet. It got me thinking. For those of you who don't have a Twitter account, that is a good thing it is used for. To get people to THINK! :o) Whoa. I am WAaaY off track. So, I was thinking. As much as the fruitfulness of this person's family is evidence of the goodness of God, it is not the reason God is good. He just is. It is His character. It is who He is. He IS good, regardless of whether our circumstances makes us feel like it or not.
My initial reaction was also that God is no less good to me than He is for this other person just because God has blessed her with three children while I am still waiting. It's not about what He chooses to do in our lives. It's about who He is... and He is good!
So, that's what I'm thinking right now. I know. Deep, huh? :o)
The update is that there is no update. We are still waiting... daring to hope... and learning to trust.
6 months and 9 days remaining on the contract with our agency.
Thank you for humoring me for a few minutes. :o)
Living in His JOY, HOPE, and PEACE...