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Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Where am I?

LORD, please cover my words with your grace...

I thought it was about time to give everyone an update on our life and adoption process. I've been thinking of doing that for some time now, but kept holding off. What? You say I procrastinated? Who me???

Officially, it has been 154 days, or 5 months and 3 days, since we submitted all the necessary paperwork to enter the "waiting pool" with the adoption agency. Prior to that, we spent about a year on the "paper chase," and prior to that, we spent the first 10 or so years of our marriage waiting for direction from God.

This is certainly not as long as many people have waited and it may not be as long as He has for us to wait.

I guess it is just about as hard to give an update to all those who know about our plans as it is to actually live out the process ourselves.

The update is that there is really no update. We have not yet been selected or even interviewed by any birth mothers, although we do know that some birth mothers have viewed our profile and album.

I always tell anyone who asks that it could happen anytime in the next 2 years. Well, the next 25 months, actually, which is the remaining length of our 30-month contract with the agency.

It could be tomorrow.

It could be next month.

It could be never... at least in the way or time we expect.

But it will be.


In God's time.

In God's place.

In God's way.

I know this because I serve a God who is faithful to His promises.

In the meantime, we continue to live our lives, and we wait.


I would not be open or honest if I did not tell you that I struggle to find personal purpose in this time of waiting.

I want to be able to look back and say that this was a time of great growth in my relationship with the LORD.

I want to be able to arrive on the other side with no regrets, having displayed God's glory in my life through my circumstances.

It's just hard.

I guess that's what makes us human and what makes me long for eternity even more.


Practically speaking, we certainly do not have a lack of things to do in life. D.T. continues to work full-time and to also teach online classes in the evenings and on weekends. I continue to work full-time and just began my 4th grad class in counseling. Let me tell ya, the next 8 weeks of that are gonna be crazy!!! We both continue to spend time with our families, whether in person or on Skype, and to love on our furbabies who drive us nuts! ;-)

BTW, D.T.'s mom has successfully conquered the art of connecting to the internet and calling her son on her new laptop computer. Pretty good, I think, for having never touched a computer before we brought one to her on our recent trip to Romania!

We SO look forward to introducing her via webcam to her newest grandbaby...

in God's time.

So, there you have it. Our update.

Living in His JOY, HOPE, and PEACE...

***Don't forget to pray for someone today!


Alexis said...

Just happened on your blog, and I was reminded of all of the waiting we had to do for our little baby. God saw fit to let us conceive, but we were praying about adoption. I will be praying for you and your husband. Just because I have a baby now doesn't mean I don't remember the pain of waiting.

I have the same background on my blog and I was wondering how you made your button. I can't find any information on it anywhere. Thanks so much!

He And Me + 3 said...

Waiting is difficult, but you have the right attitude and God will come through with the desires of your heart in His timing. I hope you get to use that webcam sooner than later to introduce the grandbaby.

amanda said...

god is soooo good. and i know that he is using you for his good. i love this post. thanks for sharing your heart and raw emotions with us. :0)

Hey Mama where's my... said...

Praying for you!!

I put the recipe on my blog for the pudding!

dmelen said...

Hang in there C.C. In God's time, Thanks for sharing, I will be praying for you.

Barnhouse Family said...

Sometimes the "grand lesson" for me was learning to be content in the waiting. I was waiting for profound insight, exponential growth, a message in the sky maybe. But God was trying to find out whether or not I was really satisfied with HIM and Him alone. He was , I admit, testing me on some levels to see just how much faith I would have...and how much control I would relinquish. I remember this time so well. Even this time last year, when I knew we had been chosen, I was still told to wait.

It always frustrated me when everyone would say, "Once you see how God works this out you'll be so amazed looking back." While I do know that to be true, to a certain extent I also believe that sometimes we're anticipating a means to an end but that's not the point at all.

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